Accomplished

Have you ever played a game and finally beat that stupid level you've been working on for what seemed like forever and then you look around and nobody was there to see how awesome you are? Kind of anti-climactic. It sucks but that's how a lot of these things happen. You feel like the whole world should stop and notice but there are people as close as next door that continue going on with their lives while you grin like an idiot at your screen. I've done it plenty of times. When my book was officially available for purchase it seemed like there should've been fireworks and loud music and people cheering. The only thing that happened was me going online, looking myself up, and then seeing I was there. There were no bells or cheers. It was just there. Sure, I had that feeling of accomplishment which is awesome and I finally got to see my name in print, but it didn't feel special. It took a few minutes for it all to sink in but when it finally did, I smiled, showed my husband it was there, and called my mom. I got a little scared because now people could read what I wrote but it was exciting too. There was no parade, no confetti, no party, but I was still happy and I still published my first novel. So, basically, not all accomplishments have to be huge events with banners flying and cameras flashing. Not everyone will know what I've done but I will and that's what matters. I know what I wrote, I have my book to prove that to myself. What I need to remind myself of every day is that I don't need to prove anything to anyone else. If I can make myself proud, then I call it a win.